I Am, Regardless.

I'm god damn tired of people saying "Well, helping that person won't get you any further in life" or "helping them out won't help you advance"; do they think I've become a 21 year old man ENTIRELY on my own?

Yes, take care of yourself, don't neglect yourself too much, strive to where you'd like to be, try your best to get there. But that doesn't mean others are only for fun times; and when there's something you might be able to help with hell no, 'cause it might "set you back". How about when YOU need help, how would it feel if your own family and your close friends suddenly were like "nah man, we got our own shit to take care of.."?!

How about if YOUR mother got sick, hurt, tired or whatever; would you just say "Sorry mom! You should've made more money and been more careful"?
What if YOUR daughter, or boyfriend or whatever was just barely getting by, barely paying off bills late, has debts, eats nothing but canned food; and you were perfectly capable of buying them $20 of fresh groceries; you wouldn't 'cause they should be capable on their own and that would slow your "progress" in life down?

I grew up weak, blind, ignorant, but curious. I was taught, I was taken care of. And I watched people teach and take care of each other, too. Regardless of relations, language, age, and circumstances. Yes, I was taught how to get by on my own. Yes, I am capable of covering all of my material needs alone with no problem; 'cause I work hard. But does that mean I should be of some sort of superior status, keeping everything to my own 'cause I worked hard for it?

Maybe I would understand if I literally spent every penny I made on people I don't really know, completely neglecting myself for the present and future. 'Causing myself harm by doing such. Yes, maybe I would nod and say "You know, maybe I deserve a fuckin' cheesecake!"

But heyy, If you want to do that, that's fine. If you want to be a highlander, that's your life. To each their own. I was given a lot. I was watched over. I've been taken good care of by many, many people. Family, friends, teachers, bosses, co-workers, strangers, and even pets. Whether it may seem to be a "silly sense of obligation" to you or not is completely irrelevant to the fact that I want to give. I want to try to make a difference. Even if it's just small differences here and there, it's my choice, it's what I want to do.

Though I've been used, stepped on, left unappreciated and maybe even forgotten many times; I won't be that way.